I'll Call You Later

I don't know how many times I've heard this but I rather not, cuz its not true. Guys say this all the time. Its like one of those thing to say in conversation that you really don't mean but think the other party wants to hear. If your not gonna follow thru the call than don't tell me you'll call.

It's like that episode of Friends (yes I said Friends, don't judge me) when Rachel hooks Chandler up with her boss. Chandler doesn't like her boss but keeps telling this woman, "I'll call you". This poor lady keeps expecting him to call but he never does. And Rachel is freaking out cuz she set them up and she doesn't want her boss to hate her. So hilarity ensues and it makes for a very funny episode.

What I'm talking about starts at 1:00.


I've stopped believing this after I heard it a handful of times and the dude didn't call.

What's interesting to me is how a dude can get mad at you for not calling/texting them but don't see the problem in not hitting you back, LIKE THE SAID THEY WOULD. Does, "I'll Call You Later" in manspeak mean, "Baby, if I don't call you should call me"? I'm baffled. This happens especially with Spike and T-Bear. They will say, "I'll call you later" and they don't call. Not even text to say, "My bad, I got caught up" or something to that affect. But let me not hit them up... goodness I get told I'm running away and forgetting about people. Now I start each relationship (if you can call it that) by checking in with the guy I'm interested in every so often. But if you don't keep my interest I start doing it less and less. (Unfortunately thats just about the time I've really got the guy interested in me) Thats when the guy should step his game up, if he's truly interested, right? The one thing I respected about The Ex (there's not much I do respect) is when he said he'd call, he called. No matter how late, he called.

So my thing is, if your not gonna call, don't say you'll call. You have us all sitting by our phones waiting while you done forgot about the call you promised to make. I no longer trust this phrase. And if you say it enough and don't follow through I begin to not trust you either. Of all the things I love about Mr. E this is one of the things I just can't stand.

Now have I been guilty of this a time or two. Sure. But its so rare cuz I know how aggravated it makes me. And if I don't call that day I send a text that night and call the next day.

So why do guys say, "I'll Call You Later" and not follow through? I'd rather you not say anything and surprise me with a call. It'll make my day cuz it'll let me know I'm on your mind. The former lets me know you done forgot about me which doesn't help your cause.

So gentlemen, don't say it unless you mean it!

Oh Singleville...

...to be continued.

Battlefield

My new favorite song is Battlefield by Jordin Sparks. Its been in my head for the last couple of days. Its probably because that is how I'm feeling about life right now.

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield?

Isn't that an excellent question? Friday night I saw my Ex and it brought back a lot of feelings I thought I had got passed. Lately he's been reaching out to me through friendly gestures but after all thats happened I don't really trust his motives. It got me thinking, if he came at me with, "Can we give this another try?" I know my answer would be no (actually Hell NO) but I would have to fight with everything in me to not get caught up in his whirlwind. He hasn't changed at all.

Saturday night Trig sends me a text saying "When u and ur family was having that talk u must have felt some type of way". WTF?! When I text him back to find out wats going on what do I get, No Answer. This is becoming a common occurence. By now I'm a little pissed off because first of all, I don't have time for this. My dance show (which was fabulous by the way) was in like less than two hours and I was trying to get ready. Second of all don't send me these guilt trip text messages to make me feel bad when I've done nothing wrong.

So finally I call him. Forget hello I went straight to, "What the heck is up with the text you just sent me?" I get the, well I haven't heard from you in a while (we all know I tried to contact this dude, he blames it on his phone having problems. Me, not buying it). So I say, its a two way street you want to talk to me you can call me (thats a novel idea.). So now that he's got me on the phone I'm like so whats up? What does he say? I've been going through some stuff I can't even tell you about it now. WTF?! You say that you miss my company that you want to talk now you have me to talk and you don't talk. I'm now more pissed. Finally he tells whats been going on, I try to be supportive short of extending myself too far (after all we've only been on 2 dates). Afterward he can't get me off the phone fast enough and drops well when you get a chance call me. We hang up and I'm like, did I miss something? I'm a your girlfriend? Impossible because we had the relationship talk (I drop it on them early) and you said that wasn't what you were looking for but then you get upset because I'm not breaking my neck to be with you. When we hang its cool but you don't want the same things I want plus you are in another state right now. Honestly, I'm not the one.

Then J on Sunday busts down with "I just want a faithful, good girlfriend thats on the same page as me." (be careful what you ask when you send someone a text. All I said was "Hey" but I got a lot more than I bargained for) My mom was getting on me for not getting with J and I kept telling her that there was just something I couldn't put my finger on about him that turned me off. Now I know what it is: He's too NEEDY. I feel bad for him cuz he's a good dude but he needs to tone that down. And I really hope he understands I'm not auditioning for the part. (I hope we don't need to have another talk)

Then last night with Jordin singing in my head I'm dreaming about Mr. E and we're in bed together sleeping (and thats it) and he wakes me with a kiss to my neck but then like as if I was in a music video I'm sitting on a bed with this new guy I'm talking to (we'll call him Spike). I'm sitting on his lap facing him and our heads and bodies are close together. At the climax of the song I find myself torn between the two of them and they are fighting over me. ( It reminded me of Helen of Troy and how Troy and Greece went to war over her. Good story by the way) I came awake thinking that would be the worst possible thing that could happen, me torn between two great guys and hoping I pick the right one. Great start to a day huh?


Why is love such a fight. I get that if you acquire something easily you appreciate it less but my goodness is trying to fall in love and finding the one supposed to be this complicated, hard, annoying, and gut-wrenching?

"you better go and get your armor"

I guess I better.

...to be continued.