I Think I Love You

Whenever a man asks you "Do you believe in love at first sight?" after three dates warning signs should flash and sirens should blare. When the MC texted me this, why did I pray that he didn't say say "I love you." What he texted was just as bad.

I Think I Love You

How can he know that? Yes, I do believe in love at first sight. I believe that you can know if you want to be with someone instantly, that you can feel a pull so strong that you know you are meant to be with that person forever, and that butterflies will flutter in your stomach uncontrollably. I just wouldn't go to that person after hanging out 3 times and tell them I think I love you. Rejection is a ... you know.

So I understand that but... I guess I'm just a cynic. I don't understand why he would feel that way about me. And to be honest this gave me pause.

I think he's a great guy, I enjoy the time I spend with him but those 4 reservations are constantly in play in the back of my mind. I hate to admit it but I thought to myself, "I wish that a certain someone else was telling me this".

I just don't feel what he feels at this moment, telling me he feels like we are soul mates and that I'm stuck with him. I'm trying to figure out if this is game he trying to run on me. What's his angle? What does he feel that I can offer him that makes me worthy of forever? Why is he so ready to settle down now? Is it me specifically he wants or is so ready for marriage that any woman would do?

When someone tells you they "think" they love you it shouldn't cause more questions than answers. While I'm flattered I'm also FREAKING OUT.

I don't want to hurt him. Lord help me.

... to be continued.

Do You Like Me?

This takes me back to Junior High school. Passing notes that say,

Do you like me?
Circle One: Yes, No, or Maybe.

*sigh* I never did get one of those notes. Lol. Was too busy trying be like one of the boys and had my head stuck in a book. Woulda liked one though. Not too many boys want to give tomboyish bookworms notes. *shrug* Oh, well.

But anyway, now to the story that brought up this blast to the past.

Honey asked me the other day: Do you like me? Why is it that I was amused when this was asked? (Not in bad way) I was totally taken aback because it seemed like such an elementary question.

While I thought it was cute I realized that he didn't really know me. If you have my time then there is something I like about you. If I didn't like you you'd know; I wouldn't be giving you my time.

I think its interesting that no matter how old we get its like we're still in Junior High passing notes wondering if the cutest boy/girl in school is crushin' on us. Hoping they'll send a note our way. We still have those same fears of rejection we just hide them better when we get older.

I still thought it was cute though and you know I had to ask it back. I mean if you gonna ask me, I'm gonna ask you. Lol.

Everything hinges on" Do you like me?" The scariest thing about asking that question is getting the answer.

... to be continued