I love this song.
I guess you could call me Chante ;)
... to be continued
Showing posts with label happiness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label happiness. Show all posts
Monday, December 13, 2010
Friday, May 14, 2010
Date Night
So 2 Fridays past (I'm kinda late writing this huh? lol.) I went out with 6'8. I wore this cute sundress, my hair was done in these nice curls; I had him dreaming about that outfit for days. I looked hot (lol) but anyway it was a gorgeous day. We went to the South Street Seaport. Went to this cute little restaurant and ate outside near the water. It was so romantic and I was definitely feeling the atmosphere so we kissed. And it was...
Ok.
Maybe I put too much weight on kissing but I want to be wowed when I'm kissed.
Now that being said. We have gone out every Friday since then. I always enjoy myself. Some of the places he has taken me have been amazing. We have kissed on more than one occasion but I still haven't been wowed and I'm still holding back...
Its interesting to me because I can't exactly pinpoint what it is that is giving me pause. Don't get me wrong, I think he's great and there is a great deal of chemistry and attraction between us but as I think of long-term; us meeting the others respective families, taking this relationship to the next level I question is this what I want.
I have thought about if this could lead to something. Marriage. He has talked about this candidly and his desire to get married and have kids. So of course I have thought about it. And he seems to think I make a good candidate for the position. But...
Will this make me happy? It would make him happy but would me just going with the flow of things be trying to fulfill his happiness and put mine secondary?
Its funny because I used to hate being home on a Friday Night but now I'm finding that I'm at a place where I don't want to have a date just to say I have one.
I want something meaningful. Now I've always thought this way but my actions didn't show this to be true. I don't want to be in a relationship just because I can, I want to be with the man I'm supposed to spend my life with.
Could that be 6'8? Anything is possible I've come to discover but at this moment I'm not certain or sold.
Lots to think about and pray about.
... to be continued
Ok.
Maybe I put too much weight on kissing but I want to be wowed when I'm kissed.
Now that being said. We have gone out every Friday since then. I always enjoy myself. Some of the places he has taken me have been amazing. We have kissed on more than one occasion but I still haven't been wowed and I'm still holding back...
Its interesting to me because I can't exactly pinpoint what it is that is giving me pause. Don't get me wrong, I think he's great and there is a great deal of chemistry and attraction between us but as I think of long-term; us meeting the others respective families, taking this relationship to the next level I question is this what I want.
I have thought about if this could lead to something. Marriage. He has talked about this candidly and his desire to get married and have kids. So of course I have thought about it. And he seems to think I make a good candidate for the position. But...
Will this make me happy? It would make him happy but would me just going with the flow of things be trying to fulfill his happiness and put mine secondary?
Its funny because I used to hate being home on a Friday Night but now I'm finding that I'm at a place where I don't want to have a date just to say I have one.
I want something meaningful. Now I've always thought this way but my actions didn't show this to be true. I don't want to be in a relationship just because I can, I want to be with the man I'm supposed to spend my life with.
Could that be 6'8? Anything is possible I've come to discover but at this moment I'm not certain or sold.
Lots to think about and pray about.
... to be continued
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Thanks God for the Moms
I'm truly blessed to have all of the motherly figures that I have in my life. They challenge me, talk to me, love me, and most importantly pray for me. As a kid you don't appreciate them like you should but now as an adult I truly value their love, concern, support, and most of all wisdom.
I say this after an insightful conversation with my mom this passed Saturday and then having lunch on Sunday with a good friend of my mom whose known me since birth. I've now stepped into the realm of having your mom as your friend. The mutual respect and the fact that they want you to succeed and not make the mistakes they did is now seen not as an attack but as a loving. I'm enjoying this new shift.
I have such respect for the motherly figures in my life. I don't know what I would do without them. So here's a big shout out with much love to the Ya-Ya Sisterhood (my mom's circle of friends), my godmommy hailing from the DMV, and of course my mommy (the original Lady D). You guys will have my heart forever.
... to be continued.
I say this after an insightful conversation with my mom this passed Saturday and then having lunch on Sunday with a good friend of my mom whose known me since birth. I've now stepped into the realm of having your mom as your friend. The mutual respect and the fact that they want you to succeed and not make the mistakes they did is now seen not as an attack but as a loving. I'm enjoying this new shift.
I have such respect for the motherly figures in my life. I don't know what I would do without them. So here's a big shout out with much love to the Ya-Ya Sisterhood (my mom's circle of friends), my godmommy hailing from the DMV, and of course my mommy (the original Lady D). You guys will have my heart forever.
... to be continued.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
I'll Call You Later
I don't know how many times I've heard this but I rather not, cuz its not true. Guys say this all the time. Its like one of those thing to say in conversation that you really don't mean but think the other party wants to hear. If your not gonna follow thru the call than don't tell me you'll call.
It's like that episode of Friends (yes I said Friends, don't judge me) when Rachel hooks Chandler up with her boss. Chandler doesn't like her boss but keeps telling this woman, "I'll call you". This poor lady keeps expecting him to call but he never does. And Rachel is freaking out cuz she set them up and she doesn't want her boss to hate her. So hilarity ensues and it makes for a very funny episode.
What I'm talking about starts at 1:00.
I've stopped believing this after I heard it a handful of times and the dude didn't call.
What's interesting to me is how a dude can get mad at you for not calling/texting them but don't see the problem in not hitting you back, LIKE THE SAID THEY WOULD. Does, "I'll Call You Later" in manspeak mean, "Baby, if I don't call you should call me"? I'm baffled. This happens especially with Spike and T-Bear. They will say, "I'll call you later" and they don't call. Not even text to say, "My bad, I got caught up" or something to that affect. But let me not hit them up... goodness I get told I'm running away and forgetting about people. Now I start each relationship (if you can call it that) by checking in with the guy I'm interested in every so often. But if you don't keep my interest I start doing it less and less. (Unfortunately thats just about the time I've really got the guy interested in me) Thats when the guy should step his game up, if he's truly interested, right? The one thing I respected about The Ex (there's not much I do respect) is when he said he'd call, he called. No matter how late, he called.
So my thing is, if your not gonna call, don't say you'll call. You have us all sitting by our phones waiting while you done forgot about the call you promised to make. I no longer trust this phrase. And if you say it enough and don't follow through I begin to not trust you either. Of all the things I love about Mr. E this is one of the things I just can't stand.
Now have I been guilty of this a time or two. Sure. But its so rare cuz I know how aggravated it makes me. And if I don't call that day I send a text that night and call the next day.
So why do guys say, "I'll Call You Later" and not follow through? I'd rather you not say anything and surprise me with a call. It'll make my day cuz it'll let me know I'm on your mind. The former lets me know you done forgot about me which doesn't help your cause.
So gentlemen, don't say it unless you mean it!
Oh Singleville...
...to be continued.
It's like that episode of Friends (yes I said Friends, don't judge me) when Rachel hooks Chandler up with her boss. Chandler doesn't like her boss but keeps telling this woman, "I'll call you". This poor lady keeps expecting him to call but he never does. And Rachel is freaking out cuz she set them up and she doesn't want her boss to hate her. So hilarity ensues and it makes for a very funny episode.
What I'm talking about starts at 1:00.
I've stopped believing this after I heard it a handful of times and the dude didn't call.
What's interesting to me is how a dude can get mad at you for not calling/texting them but don't see the problem in not hitting you back, LIKE THE SAID THEY WOULD. Does, "I'll Call You Later" in manspeak mean, "Baby, if I don't call you should call me"? I'm baffled. This happens especially with Spike and T-Bear. They will say, "I'll call you later" and they don't call. Not even text to say, "My bad, I got caught up" or something to that affect. But let me not hit them up... goodness I get told I'm running away and forgetting about people. Now I start each relationship (if you can call it that) by checking in with the guy I'm interested in every so often. But if you don't keep my interest I start doing it less and less. (Unfortunately thats just about the time I've really got the guy interested in me) Thats when the guy should step his game up, if he's truly interested, right? The one thing I respected about The Ex (there's not much I do respect) is when he said he'd call, he called. No matter how late, he called.
So my thing is, if your not gonna call, don't say you'll call. You have us all sitting by our phones waiting while you done forgot about the call you promised to make. I no longer trust this phrase. And if you say it enough and don't follow through I begin to not trust you either. Of all the things I love about Mr. E this is one of the things I just can't stand.
Now have I been guilty of this a time or two. Sure. But its so rare cuz I know how aggravated it makes me. And if I don't call that day I send a text that night and call the next day.
So why do guys say, "I'll Call You Later" and not follow through? I'd rather you not say anything and surprise me with a call. It'll make my day cuz it'll let me know I'm on your mind. The former lets me know you done forgot about me which doesn't help your cause.
So gentlemen, don't say it unless you mean it!
Oh Singleville...
...to be continued.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Highlight of my day...
Why was the highlight of my day getting my nails done? Ok, maybe I'm exaggerating a little but not that much. So I'm looking forward to this all day. 6 o'clock could not come fast enough. Now there's this nail salon near where I work so I figured I'd go in there and see how much they charge. First, they don't do acrylic; ok fine. So I ask her what they do? This traditional wrap and uv gel. Ok, sounds good to me till she tells me the price. $80 for traditional and $100 for uv gel. Is she crazy?! She talking to the wrong one. Spend $100 on a leather coat, no problem. Spend $100 on my nails that touch dirt, type all day, and clean my behind? Absolutely NOT. Thing was there we're people in the salon getting their nails done. I wanted to say, "Say whaat?" But I refrained from letting the ghetto out in the salon. I think I schooled my face pretty well as I walked out that salon (I do work downtown near Wall Street so I shouldn't have been surprised but still).
Now I haven't gotten my nails done in years (like 4 years) so I don't even know if the place I used to go is still open. So I'm walking and hopin' and prayin' and then I see...It's still there. I was able to walk in, sit in the chair immediately, and get all 10 fingernails wrapped, painted and dried in under an hour. Thank ya Jesus. Of course my sister had to tell me to not get a color and/or design that made me look Jamaican for real but I neva do anyway (them bright colors my countrywomen be wearing). So I'm happy with my nails. I had forgotten how good it feels to treat myself.
I was gonna post a pic but I felt it'd make me look like a loser (No more than this post does, but anyway). So I'm happy.
In other news, big changes to report. I'm going to be switching jobs in September cuz, in case you didn't know, I can't stand the one I have now. Everything is working out for a smooth transititon. I'm so stoked. So its not a huge change cuz its a job for the company I had worked for before and there is no pay raise but my happiness meter just shot through the roof.
Finally, why does my epic fail text me this morning at 2:45 AM asking,
Ain't nothing wrong wit my phone, there is something wrong with you. Most woulda took the hint that I don't want to have anything to do with you but his brain is rocks. He keeps making that abundantly clear. I'm so proud because I did not reply. (My relpy woulda been rude. It was 2 in the morning and I had to rise early for work) So maybe he'll think my phone is broken and stop calling/messaging. (Lord I hope so.) I am still baffled by him. He probably baffles himself too.
... to be continued
Now I haven't gotten my nails done in years (like 4 years) so I don't even know if the place I used to go is still open. So I'm walking and hopin' and prayin' and then I see...It's still there. I was able to walk in, sit in the chair immediately, and get all 10 fingernails wrapped, painted and dried in under an hour. Thank ya Jesus. Of course my sister had to tell me to not get a color and/or design that made me look Jamaican for real but I neva do anyway (them bright colors my countrywomen be wearing). So I'm happy with my nails. I had forgotten how good it feels to treat myself.
I was gonna post a pic but I felt it'd make me look like a loser (No more than this post does, but anyway). So I'm happy.
In other news, big changes to report. I'm going to be switching jobs in September cuz, in case you didn't know, I can't stand the one I have now. Everything is working out for a smooth transititon. I'm so stoked. So its not a huge change cuz its a job for the company I had worked for before and there is no pay raise but my happiness meter just shot through the roof.
Finally, why does my epic fail text me this morning at 2:45 AM asking,
"Is your phone working yet?"
Ain't nothing wrong wit my phone, there is something wrong with you. Most woulda took the hint that I don't want to have anything to do with you but his brain is rocks. He keeps making that abundantly clear. I'm so proud because I did not reply. (My relpy woulda been rude. It was 2 in the morning and I had to rise early for work) So maybe he'll think my phone is broken and stop calling/messaging. (Lord I hope so.) I am still baffled by him. He probably baffles himself too.
... to be continued
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Change My Life
The realization that I don't know where my life is going is scary and makes me want to hyperventilate. I have a job that I dislike immensely (hate is such a terrible word). All I wish i could do is quit but that seems like such a selfish want in a time when so many are struggling and are losing their jobs. Everything in me knows that this is not where I want to be. My parents keep telling me that I need to have another job before I quit this one but at this point if I don't find one soon, job or no job in my back pocket I'm gonna quit. I don't think I ask to much when I say I want a job that I'm motivated to go to. I'm not asking to love it, that is reserved for the blessed few who find their dream job or create it somehow. Maybe that is what I should do? But how? I feel like I'm hanging on by a thin thread. Soon something has to give. I have to change my life. The question is where do I start and how do get on the path I know I'm destined to travel? This single girl is looking for some serious guidance. Pray for me.
