My Foot Problems Done Set Me Back

Hello! Between work, work, and work I've been running around like a chicken with her head cut off and haven't posted her in a month.

My ankle is doing better but this one leg shorter thing got me buying lifts for my shoes! Its not a huge one but damn, I've never spent this much money on my feet when it wasn't a pretty pair of high heels. This ain't no joke. SMH. I'm just glad that I can walk and that I've been cleared to DANCE.

I am back taking my classes and I am so happy to be back out there. Its such a high and my body missed it. For real. I thankful to be back. Now I just gotta get myself back into doing some exercise too and it'll be all good.

Don't know how well I'll adjust to having to wear a lift in my shoe but we'll see how it goes. Besides them things ain't cheap (at least a good one isn't). Gosh.

These feet of mine...

... to be continued

Death, The Job Search, and Sprained Ankles

Your girl has been MIA and her life has been going at 110 miles an hour. The Ex passed away two Sundays ago and its affecting me a lot more than I thought it would. Will be going to the funeral shortly. As badly as he treated me back in the day I never wished death on him. I realized that he was such a big part of my high school and college years. It shaped the woman I am today. Although he would piss me off at times, he was a good person at heart. He was someone I thought would be there as I got older. We would have spouses and kids and be cool and it would make sense. His death and my reaction to it isn't making sense. I've been in a fog for the last week. (Secretly, he was my back up. The guy who if you still single at 35 or so you make a pact and get married, have kids, etc. Someone who through they make you raise your eyebrow at them at times is still someone you can tolerate, is familiar and will give you pretty babies. lol. Now I have no back up.) That may sound selfish but since I was 16 I thought I was gonna marry this dude. Now that ain't even a faint possibility. Thats a deep truth to accept.

My job search has stalled a bit. After 2 months of sending resumes and getting only one interview I'm starting to get tired. Smh. But I gotta be true to the process. I'm in it for the long haul.

And my ankle. This blasted ankle still got me at physical therapy. I'm getting more frustrated as my dance classes get closer.

And can you believe it is almost September? Wow. So far this year had been (as 6'8 says) Bananas! I don't know how much more I can take. This year needs to gain some upside to not be one of the worst years of my life. Wow.

...to be continued.

Physical Therapy

I started physical therapy (PT as my doctor called it) last week and it has been PAINFUL.

Was there last night and my physical therapist said that my ankle is still pretty unstable. You should see how she taped up my ankle. Who knew that tape could immobilize your foot like this! Its forcing me to walk a certain way which is giving my ankle more stability and hopefully will allow me to stop wearing this air cast very soon. I will try to show a pic of it later today. Good thing I had a long dress on yesterday cuz this trash goes all the way up to my knee and in NY they will stare at you. Lol.

I'll be going for my fourth visit on Friday. I want this road to recovery to speed up. I hope to start strength training soon. I want to be back to 100% ASAP. I'm getting cabin fever not being able to workout and dance. This is bananas!

... to be continued

My Show Was Great

So we all know I sprained my ankle so I couldn't do my dance show. I was totally bummed. I had been practicing the routines for months and I felt bad because I felt like I was letting down the other ladies in my groups, I'm one of the stronger dancers.

So this past Saturday was the show and just because I wasn't in it doesn't mean I couldn't go and see it.

It was awesome. The ladies in my group did great and my teacher took my part so it was all good. I was so glad. But I did miss being up on that stage. I miss dancing. This foot needs to heal up quick.

Ankle Update: That same Friday I went to the doctor. He took off the cast and said that my ankle was still unstable so I'm now wearing an air cast for the next 2-3 weeks. However, this cast is removable, THANK GOD! So I can put it on when I'm outside and walking around and take it off when I'm in the house. I can shower without the fear of getting it messed up. I'm still cautious though cuz I ain't trying to have a setback. And then my doc prescribed me 6 weeks of physical therapy so thats my summer.

At least it ain't broken.

...to be continued.