Maybe I do. I got a comment on my last post saying that I shouldn't of written it. That my boyfriend wouldn't appreciate it if he knew I had. Was I being selfish or mean spirited when writing it? Was I really thinking about how he would feel? I guess because almost no one knows who he is (besides those close to me) I didn't think about it.
Hmmm. I think I'm gonna chill....
And think.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Questioning
"I think you would neglect your family"
This is what my boyfriend said to me this morning because when he asked me what my top 5 priorities were I included church in the list. We spent an hour going back an forth over this and it just pissed me off even more. I did not need to hear that this morning cuz it jacked up my whole day.
It got me thinking to myself, "Then why is he with me?" If you think that I could neglect my own children why would you be with me? Then I thought, if you think that low of me why am I with you? And why is church the thing that would make me be neglectful of my family? I'm involved in my church but it is one of the many things I do. Why would that be the one thing that I would choose over my family?
Am I overeacting or justified in my hurt? Cuz, whether he realized or not he just gave me another reason to seriously question whether him and I should be a we.
Lord help me.
... to be continued.
