Death, The Job Search, and Sprained Ankles

Your girl has been MIA and her life has been going at 110 miles an hour. The Ex passed away two Sundays ago and its affecting me a lot more than I thought it would. Will be going to the funeral shortly. As badly as he treated me back in the day I never wished death on him. I realized that he was such a big part of my high school and college years. It shaped the woman I am today. Although he would piss me off at times, he was a good person at heart. He was someone I thought would be there as I got older. We would have spouses and kids and be cool and it would make sense. His death and my reaction to it isn't making sense. I've been in a fog for the last week. (Secretly, he was my back up. The guy who if you still single at 35 or so you make a pact and get married, have kids, etc. Someone who through they make you raise your eyebrow at them at times is still someone you can tolerate, is familiar and will give you pretty babies. lol. Now I have no back up.) That may sound selfish but since I was 16 I thought I was gonna marry this dude. Now that ain't even a faint possibility. Thats a deep truth to accept.

My job search has stalled a bit. After 2 months of sending resumes and getting only one interview I'm starting to get tired. Smh. But I gotta be true to the process. I'm in it for the long haul.

And my ankle. This blasted ankle still got me at physical therapy. I'm getting more frustrated as my dance classes get closer.

And can you believe it is almost September? Wow. So far this year had been (as 6'8 says) Bananas! I don't know how much more I can take. This year needs to gain some upside to not be one of the worst years of my life. Wow.

...to be continued.