"This is just another excuse a dude will use to go dutch"
She's got her own so she don't need mine. Oh please. *eyeroll* Lol.
Is that wrong to think? *shrugs*
... to be continued
Monday, October 31, 2011
A Cynic's Thoughts - She's Got Her Own
Was listening to this song earlier today and the first thing to pop into my head;
She's got her own so she don't need mine. Oh please. *eyeroll* Lol.
Is that wrong to think? *shrugs*
... to be continued
She's got her own so she don't need mine. Oh please. *eyeroll* Lol.
Is that wrong to think? *shrugs*
... to be continued
Sunday, October 30, 2011
A Cynic's Thoughts
I think I'm becoming a cynic. I've been watching sappy movies all night and all it keep thinking is... That's a load of bulls#@%!
I don't want to think like that but for me my love life has yet to have that happy ending which makes me wonder if it only happens in books and movies and to everyone who is not Lady Dee. Lol.
I've always been critical but my cynicism is increasing, sigh, and I don't like it. Oh well.
... to be continued
I don't want to think like that but for me my love life has yet to have that happy ending which makes me wonder if it only happens in books and movies and to everyone who is not Lady Dee. Lol.
I've always been critical but my cynicism is increasing, sigh, and I don't like it. Oh well.
... to be continued
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Mail-Order Husband
So, in the crazy recesses of my mind. I've been thinking about the possibility of advertising for a mail-order husband.
Its crazy I know. I've been reading a lot of stories about mail-order brides recently. I'm fascinated by history and I have come to feel a kinship with these women in these stories. So of them fictitious and some of them real. They are ladies who felt unwanted, past their time, unpretty, plain or damaged, and lack confidence; like this was their last hope.
I've felt all these things on more than one occassion. I sympathize with these women who put all their hopes and dreams on a man they had never met and barely knew but for a few letters. This I know but sometimes when your at the wits end... you do some crazy things.
Maybe... I don't know. Sometimes I think I'm losing my mind over this marriage and babies stuff. Sometimes when you want something so bad it starts to consume you.
My biggest fear is making a decision out of desperation. Marriage for me is forever. Its a big decision that I have to live with til I die. I want to make the best choices possible but my choices feel limited and that makes me anxious. Gosh, sometimes I wish I was a man.
...to be continued.
Its crazy I know. I've been reading a lot of stories about mail-order brides recently. I'm fascinated by history and I have come to feel a kinship with these women in these stories. So of them fictitious and some of them real. They are ladies who felt unwanted, past their time, unpretty, plain or damaged, and lack confidence; like this was their last hope.
I've felt all these things on more than one occassion. I sympathize with these women who put all their hopes and dreams on a man they had never met and barely knew but for a few letters. This I know but sometimes when your at the wits end... you do some crazy things.
Maybe... I don't know. Sometimes I think I'm losing my mind over this marriage and babies stuff. Sometimes when you want something so bad it starts to consume you.
My biggest fear is making a decision out of desperation. Marriage for me is forever. Its a big decision that I have to live with til I die. I want to make the best choices possible but my choices feel limited and that makes me anxious. Gosh, sometimes I wish I was a man.
...to be continued.
