Thursday, November 12, 2009

The Elephant

I know I've been talking about this Elephant for the longest time so without further ado...

The huge elephant in the room of our relationship is: faith.

I'm a Christian and doesn't believe... at all. His faith is in people. Why is this a problem? I'm very involved in my church, my dad is a pastor, and I never thought I'd be with someone who wasn't a believer. Now with most guys when I learn that our faiths differ I no longer pursue a romantic interest.

But Washington is a conundrum. He doesn't mind discussing my faith and he says its one of the things he loves about me; how strong my faith is. And if I'm honest with myself he is the best relationship I've ever had. He truly cares for me, he wants me in his life, he has no problem telling people about me, he wants to do whatever he can to make me happy, he includes me in his future plans and he wants to impress my parents. After dating so many duds I finally have found a good one but...

"Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness?"

2 Corinthians 6:14

While he doesn't feel this is a big deal this is waring within me constantly cuz I can't ignore what the Word of God says. Yet, I feel that all things happen for a reason. That we were meant to meet. That God placed him in my life for such a time as thisw. Wat that reason is I have yet to figure out. But, I'm on the journey to find out.

My fear is falling in love with him and then having to let him go. *sigh* God forbid. I have to trust that He'll work everything out.

I'll keep you posted.

... to be continued


Enigma Jones said...

That sucks!!! I've never been in the situation myself, but I can definately see why you are torn. I have to say that if this is something that is weighing heavy on your heart right now, it will continue to do so. Especially since it is not Washington who is having an issue with it, but you. I don't think this is something that will just fix itself, because we are talking about your foundation. Yes, everything happens for a reason, but how do we know that this isn't God testing you to see how committed you are to His Word? Perhaps Washington was put in your life at this particular times because God knew that thsi would be the perfect time to test you (after all of the duds). I don't know, I hate to only see the downside of this but I have to give it to you as I see it from the outside looking in. Godo luck in whatever you decide

Anonymous said...

Does he not believe in God or the institution of the church? I hope you realize that there is a difference.

Lady Dee said...

I know that there is a difference. He's told me that he feels its too unrealistic to believe in God and that he needs proof that he can see, feel, etc.

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