Wednesday, September 23, 2009


I saw Washington last Friday and had a great time. :-/

Why the face? Because the day before that me and PT had an amazing convo. Why was it amazing? Because we both shared pieces of ourselves we almost never share with anyone. Our emotions. *sigh* Do you know how hard it is to find a guy I can share my mind with? Do you know how much harder it is to get him to share his with you? It seems we've taken this to a whole other level.

But... when I was with Washington it was so easy. The convo flowed I didn't feel awkward, nervous, none of this first time jitters people usually have. I was able to just be, you would of thought we had been seeing each other for year the way we interacted and vibed. It was just sooooo EASY. (I like easy, everything else in life is so complicated)

So what is a single girl to do? I can't really compare them because I haven't spent time in PT physical presence. What I do know is that when I was with Washington I was with him. I wasn't daydreaming, I was totally there in the moment with him.

The problem is, I'm a "what if" girl? I always wonder what could have been and I won't let it go til I know. PT is my "what if". I can't let him go until we meet face to face and I know yes we can make this work or no we can't. Which means I can't really move forward with Washington cuz in the back of my mind will be PT. Ugh. Hopefully all will be revealed soon.

In the mean time I see Washington again this Friday :)


khaki said...

Sometimes you just have to stop the "what if's" and go with the moment!

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